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When it was over
Posted on February 24th, 2010 No commentsWhen it was over and they could talk about it
She said there’s just one thing I have got to know
What in that moment when you were running so hard and fast
Made you stop and turn for home
He said I always knew you loved me even though I’d broken your heart
I always knew there’d be a place for me to make a brand new startOh love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Make us wholeWhen it was over and they could talk about it
They were sitting on the couch
She said what on earth made you stay here
When you finally figured out what I was all about
He said I always knew you’d do the right thing
Even though it might take some time
She said, Yeah, I felt that and that’s probably what saved my lifeOh love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Make us wholeThere is a love that never fails
There is a healing that always prevails
There is a hope that whispers a vow
A promise to stay while we’re working it out
So come with your love and wash over us(sara groves)
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so where is stef now?
Posted on October 22nd, 2009 3 comments
Dear Tita Carol,
I hope you don’t mind if I make my first email to you is an open one. I wanted you to see my blog too—and let my readers—at least, the few that I have— know where I have been lately because I haven’t updated my blog for a while now. It’s kinda dusty from lack of use for the past month or so, but if you’ll look at the “What is Godspotting?” page you’ll see that this is all about finding God in the everyday and in the mundane—the mostly small stuff. And I guess you can say that that’s how I am approaching life right now. It’s taken me a while to get here, but it’s the one thing that keeps me from despairing over the calamities of the tiny universe in my head (where everything defaults to revolving around me, if I don’t watch it) and over the calamities in this world that I share with everyone else. Not that big stuff stopped happening to me and to the people around anymore—they do, but lately I’ve been loving the small things. It comes with age I guess.
Speaking of age…
I’m 29 now. (Next year, I’ll be 30!!!!)
Usually, I have this great Big Think on my birthday, and then a party afterwards. But I kinda missed my 29th birthday, being on neither side of the world where it happened. It’s rather cool when you think about it, but mostly, I just slept through it (with the help of the awesome business class seats of PAL). So anyway, I didn’t get to do my Big Think, thank God—but instead, it stretched throughout the next few weeks (hence, I’ve been quiet on the blog until now).
I was just reflecting on that on the way to meeting with Grace for our weekly hanging out (AKA “small group”) that I’m homeless, in terms of church and ministry. Funny to think that even if I have a pastor for a boyfriend and he has his own church, and I have you guys from UCM, plus my church in Imus, Cavite. But things have been shifting and changing, and I don’t know where to place myself. At least, not yet…
As for my job, it’s the first time I’ve actually consistently gone to an office for more than a year. I love my job. Like anything, I get frustratedannoyedexasperated and stressed over it. I think I contemplate changing my career at least once a month, but I love it. And I’m still at it. Jacs, one of my friends here in the office, and I proposed a magazine idea to the big bosses a few months ago, so we’re praying about that.
So I moved out of my parents’ house and I’m now renting a place in Makati. I love living here, but then the lease on our apartment will be up at the end of the year—I don’t know if we’re keeping it or moving to another place, or I’ll go back to driving again (please God no).
And what next? Please don’t say marriage, or “Get married” or ask, “Why aren’t you married yet?” I get that question in various versions every single day. I only have one answer to that: when it happens, it will be at the perfect moment.
So where is Stef now? I think it’s gone the way of my 29th birthday—in the middle of somewhere, in between days, in between the morning and the night time. In between everything. Like every other single (as long as you’re not married, you’re still single) young adult, I’m still on the brink of something hopefully great and legendary. I can feel the great expanse waiting for me, just as I am waiting to get there.
And all I have is right now—this moment, these words, this day. My family, my friends, my beloved. My cat and my hamster. Our flat in Makati. My job, my work, my cubicle, this laptop I drag around with me every day. My clothes, shoes, and bags, makeup. This blog, my facebook, twitter accounts.
I also have this peace. This overwhelming sense of security despite of all that is happening to our country, to our people. I don’t understand it, I don’t think I ever will fully comprehend it, but I’m glad I have it.
And I have my great awesome God, who’s bigger than the biggest problem, yet so near to hear even the tiniest of prayers.
I know He’s here with me in the middle of somewhere. I can see His thumbprint on everything.
So here, by the grace of God, goes Stef, still Godspotting.
p.s. be emailing you more later.
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Vroom Vroom Vroom
Posted on August 27th, 2009 2 commentsok, so this is going to be the very first advertorial i’m doing in Godspotted, but unsurprisingly, it’s not too much of a stretch to spot God here too…
I’m talking about the Northern Adventure Race is a Point to Point Race with Checkpoints. (Manila – Baguio – San Fernando, La Union – Dagupan – Subic)
The goal is to reach the Finish Line with the least time and within the limits of the law. A minimum time from point to point shall be set by Race Director using a theoretical computation between distance and maximum speed limits.
Every minute under theoretical time will mean incurring a penalty of plus 5 minutes.
(I find this race cool and different because instead of racing to set the least time to get to one point to another, a time has already been set, and you must comply to it. Not to beat it, but to do your darndest to meet it, or at least come close. I got a bit confused on the rule that states that you get a penalty if you’re ahead of the time! This requires a different kind of precision driving, and if you’re up for the challenge, this will be awesome.
Kinda like God’s laws and standards, huh? We don’t make the call, the standards have been set. I think this is a lot harder than going out there and setting the standards ourselves.)
Anyway, here are the Mechanics:
- Interested participants can fill up Registration Form at www.m150unleashed.multiply.com
- Email separately soft copies of the following requirements to m150unleashed@gmail.com (a) 2×2 individual photos of Team Members, (b) scanned valid license of appointed driver and co-driver, (c) pic of car to be used for the Race, (d) scanned car registration. If Team doesn’t own car, submit authorization from registered owner.
- Attend the Aug 29 Project Launch in Greenhills Shopping Complex, 9pm. Bring car and photocopies of required documents.
- No Registration Fee for the first 50 Cars who will be approved to join.
- After 50 Cars, Registration Fee of P1000 will be imposed. Reg Fees shall be made part of the Grand Prize
- To determine if you are part of the first 50 Cars with no Registration Fee, an email will be sent back to you confirming your Registration Number. A slot will be reserved for you pending final confirmation on August 29 during the Launch Celebration.GUIDELINES
- Map & Route will be emailed to Participating Teams 5 days before Event Day.
- Checkpoint Locations will be given on the day of the Event
- There shall be one minute interval for the start of each car
- Competitors will be issued score cards to keep track of route and times
- Gas for the Race & Accommodations in Subic shall be to the account of the Participating TeamSCHEDULE
August 29, 2009 (Sat) Launch & Screening in Greenhills Shopping Complex, 9pm
September 19, 2009 (Sat) Northern Adventure Race (Actual Event)GRAND PRIZE
P 50,000 cash
Special Edition Jacket
5 cases M-150 Energy Drink
Special Gift Packs from PartnersGrand feast awaits all finishers in Subic!
FOR INQUIRIES: Call M-150 Secretariat. Ask for Kat Corpus
Hotlines: (632) 707.9859 / (632) 393.0288
Cell: (63) 9193292013 / (63) 9228808805
Email : m150unleashed@gmail.comGodspeed guys. I wanna join this race too. I love to drive!
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today, i still carry
Posted on July 3rd, 2009 2 comments
Today I carry my time. and it drips through my fingers the tighter i hold on to it.
I carry yesterday.
I carry today and today and today.
I carry eternity one day at a time.
I don’t carry the hurt. not anymore.
I don’t carry promises we never intended to keep.
I don’t carry words that make me bleed.
no more of this armor that God didn’t give.
I don’t carry with me the tomorrows we could have had.
no more of the should’ves could’ve might’ve hadsToday I carry Joseph’s colorful coat.
David’s harp.
Noah’s ark.
Moses’ staff.
Jacob’s ladder.
Ruth’s gleanings.I carry my mother’s heart. Tender, yet strong.
I carry my father’s love that goes deeper than his pockets can go, and still it gives and gives and gives some more.
I carry my brothers. my sisters.
(and my seester carries the Sky.)I carry with me Home. down roads i can travel in my sleep, alleyways and byways and highways.
I carry with me the people i meet.I carry the warmth of my hand in his.
(and I carry his (heart) in mine.)
I carry with me sunsets on the water,
trees and mountains, and behind the cathedral bell tower.
I carry a kite and the bright blue sky embracing it.
I carry a city’s quiet streets.
I carry the waves the rise and fall and hiss and roar
I carry the cat, the whole armful of him and the scratches he don’t mean to give.
I carry bubbles, rainbows and other fragile things.
Today I carry my name. (and i don’t get to keep my name.)
and I carry my heart.
with
This hope.
This love and (not-so secret) love.
This forgiveness.
I carry with me my faith.
that
you Lord, you carry me.(reposted, edited from June 5, 2008)
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like a city on a hill
Posted on July 2nd, 2009 No comments
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Godspotting goes on even if blogging doesn’t
Posted on June 1st, 2009 1 commentso i have been neglecting this blog on purpose– as in,
me: “should i go blog today?”
me: “nah.”
not that nothing much has been happening, quite the opposite, actually. so much, that the space i have in between happenings are jealously guarded as no-writing-time. hence, not blogging.
but the Godspotting still goes on.

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God of small and big things
Posted on April 30th, 2009 No commentsi love it how our God is big enough to care about even the most trivial things… I got mineral foundation and mascara (and then some) from L’Oreal just when I was about to run out!
(yes, i could be just over-spiritualizing things… but i’m learning to give thanks in every and any situation. it’s not like i pray for free makeup! i just know where to credit these unexpected windfalls to.)





