A calling is simply God’s shaping of your burden and His beckoning you to your service to Him in the place and pursuit of His choosing. Finding your home in your service to Christ is key to noticing the threads that God has designed just for you. When you find it, you inevitably feel that hand-in-glove sensation. Finding it gives you the security of knowing that you are utilizing your gifts and your will to God’s end first, not yours. When you align your will with God’s will, His calling on you has found its home. A true call of God puts a tug on your soul that you cannot escape, no matter how unattractive the cost of following it may feel. And what is the starting point for this process? The Bible leaves us in no doubt: do what you know to be God’s will, and then watch how He will lead you into what you do not yet know. you are God’s temple; so act like it. God reinforces his call as your respond to His nod.

(Ravi Zacharias, in The Grand Weaver)

Sometimes I still really don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing. But whenever I try to stall and claim ineptness, a problem or a task pops up in front of me and forces me to solve it. Because, for some reason, I can’t help but do the job in front of me.

Before I know it, I now have a curriculum vitae of jobs that I did just because they are right in front of me. I don’t know how many articles I’ve already written since I graduated in 2002, but it’s safe to say that they’re in the hundreds. I’ve been a personal assistant, driver, editorial assistant, features editor, PR writer, curriculum writer, teacher, and now managing editor. I tried getting out of this trend, but it’s like I’m always being herded back here.

I’m still waiting for that “tug” on my soul that I cannot escape… Sometimes I know for sure that this is my calling– to be a writer, an editor–and other times it just feels like I can’t escape (hah!). So for now, I’ll just keep on doing the job that’s in front of me and trust my Creator that this path will eventually take me somewhere I can recognize as my “calling.”

Then again, it could just be the difficult day talking.