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3rd July
2009
written by Stef


Today I carry my time. and it drips through my fingers the tighter i hold on to it.
I carry yesterday.
I carry today and today and today.

I carry eternity one day at a time.

I don’t carry the hurt. not anymore.
I don’t carry promises we never intended to keep.
I don’t carry words that make me bleed.
no more of this armor that God didn’t give.
I don’t carry with me the tomorrows we could have had.
no more of the should’ves could’ve might’ve hads

Today I carry Joseph’s colorful coat.
David’s harp.
Noah’s ark.
Moses’ staff.
Jacob’s ladder.
Ruth’s gleanings.

I carry my mother’s heart. Tender, yet strong.
I carry my father’s love that goes deeper than his pockets can go, and still it gives and gives and gives some more.
I carry my brothers. my sisters.
(and my seester carries the Sky.)

I carry with me Home. down roads i can travel in my sleep, alleyways and byways and highways.
I carry with me the people i meet.

I carry the warmth of my hand in his.
(and I carry his (heart) in mine.)

I carry with me sunsets on the water,
trees and mountains, and behind the cathedral bell tower.
I carry a kite and the bright blue sky embracing it.

I carry a city’s quiet streets.
I carry the waves the rise and fall and  hiss and roar
I carry the cat, the whole armful of him and the scratches he don’t mean to give.
I carry bubbles, rainbows and other fragile things.

Today I carry my name. (and i don’t get to keep my name.)

and I carry my heart.
with
This hope.
This love and (not-so secret) love.
This forgiveness.
I carry with me my faith.
that
you Lord, you carry me.

(reposted, edited from June 5, 2008)

2 Comments

  1. Feziwe
    03/08/2009

    May I repost this please.
    PS: you’re my favorite blogger.
    Stay blessed.

  2. Stef
    04/08/2009

    hey feziwe! yes, you may repost (just put a link back to my site!) thanks!!! :)

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